On April 1st, I got this email from my dad:
It was 18 years ago today in the early morning ...... that the ambulance came and took your angel mother away.
Lorie was 12, Brandon was 3, and you can do the math as to how old the rest of you were. [I was 9]
I hope you all will take a moment to contemplate how rich your life has been these last 18 years...
And how infinitely the opposite it might have been.
Love,
DaDaWow, that really got me thinking. I can't imagine the last 18 years without my mom! My mom has been here for me when I got married, took care of me when I had each of my babies, brushed my hair and got me ice while I was laboring with Liah...
I love my mom! Growing up, I always felt overshadowed by my older sister and my brothers. Mom was really busy with them. I came across my journal last night that I started the day I turned 16. Boy, was that ever an eye opener! I laughed so hard as I was reading it. But something stood out to me that I never realized before. After my sister left to college, I had a LOT of time with my mom! Sure, she was busy with my brothers a lot, but I read in there about going to a wedding reception with just me and her, shopping for the gift, finding wrapping to wrap it with. I wrote in there about a couple of outfits that my mom bought for me (which being a younger sister with
muchas hand-me-downs is saying something!). I read in there about making 20 quarts of peach jam in one day, and I word for word wrote down the recipe on how to do it! Oh, the things my mom taught me! Even being the overshadowed one, my life has been so richly blessed because of my mother, just like my dad said! and how different it could have been!
I've been thinking a lot about motherhood lately and just how spiritual it is. When we come to this earth, we forget everything about our former life. But we have a loving Heavenly Father who wants us to return to Him. He doesn't want us to be alone. It is absolutely beautiful that he sends his spirit children directly to a mother who carries them for 9 months, and learns during this time to love this little person inside her before they have ever even met. When they are born, they are placed directly into their mother's arms! Even though they don't remember anything about their former life, they already have someone here who loves and cares for them more than anything in the world. And it's my job to get to teach my 4 little ones how to get back to Him. I will forever be grateful for my mother. I couldn't have chosen a better one.
I LOVE YOU MOM!!! Happy Mother's Day!